Be Kind to Yourself

For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to wear a strapless wedding dress if and when I get married someday. Chronic illness has changed how my body looks, and I’ve found it challenging to accept the changes it’s gone through this past year.

It’s hard to give yourself grace and find yourself beautiful when the first thing you see is scars. I went from being the most confident person I knew, to wanting to hide from the light. After having a central line last summer, I reluctantly had a chest port placed this week. Because I’ve had so many IV’s the past few years, my veins are scarred and damaged so I’ll be receiving treatments through a chest vein that is accessed by a device under my skin. I’ll be starting IV therapy with phosphatidylcholine, and eventually stem cells. This of course meant another surgery, and more chest and neck scars.

After a lot of thinking, I’ve decided to embrace my battle scars. My scars are beautiful. They tell a story. My story. My body is a soldier, and strong is she. By grace and through faith I have walked and continue to walk through hell fire.

Flowers bloom easier than warriors, but God never wastes pain. 💐This season of pain has been longer than I would ever wish upon anyone. I have been tested in every way and endured more pain than anyone should have to endure. This season is far from over, but I’m not giving up. I’m closer to God than ever before, and anything is possible. To anyone else navigating a treacherous journey, be kind to yourself. Fight the battle, and win the war. Healing is possible

-cmg 🧚‍♀️

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